I have certainly lost touch with myself. Almost completely and I’m so ashamed and disgusted with me. I’ve been so absorbed with the lives of others, spent so long envying how happy someone was and then becoming so depressed because I couldn’t create such a lively lifestyle for myself. And then I realized…it’s all in my mind. What appears to be really isn’t all that I’ve thought. It’s all in my mind and with that being said…so is the life I live. If I change my mindset, I change my life. So cheers to a cleaner, more positive, much happier mindset…and hopefully a life to match it.

Wait….what? I mean, we just only started so what are you really trying to say? I don’t want to jump to conclusions but my mind naturally does it anyway. So are you saying I’m just your toy until you get bored? Or were you just trying to see how fast you could hit it and quit it? Was I your interlude into summer? I don’t understand. I know summertime temperatures rise and people want to hop on that single boat and such and such but don’t have me dragging behind you. Either sever the ties or show that you’re in it for the long haul. I don’t want it to seem like I’m forcing you to do anything. I’d just rather not be left looking stupid.